What's Love Got to do With It

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Okay....so the saga continues. Bloggers He asked (mr poem writer
himself) but he never answered. So I answered for him. I got fed up and
sent him an email (I know I broke down) Read the following to see what I
sent him.

"So after deep thought and contemplation, after hours of deliberation
and meditation, I was struck with a revelation....

I am her. I am that girl that I claimed I would never be. I have become
that one. And no matter how many times I have seen it before, that
didn't stop me at all from following in those same footsteps as the
girls before me who I jeered at and criticized for their lack of
insight, for their weaknesses, lack of back bone, and their incapability
to see people for who they really are. I am that girl, this is the girl
you've made me to be. The sad part is I knew this from the start. I knew
all of this from the very beginning, but instead I turned my cheek the
other way. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and
over and expecting the different results. Well, when it comes to you, I
must be insane. Because I find myself doing the same things over and
over again when it comes to my love life and keep expecting a different
result. I keep finding these men that I know are "just not that into me"
yet I refuse to let go. Sure I may not call them, write or email them,
but I harbor these feelings and keep them bottled up inside until they
manifest in the form of bitterness and resentment."

"I must be a fool...this whole time that I've known you all I ever asked
for was openness and honesty and in return I would give you my all. And
instead you continue to turn your back on me and leave me wondering what
I did wrong or what it is about me that makes you incapable of opening
up to me. Well, no longer will I wonder, no longer will I use clever
basketball analogies to relate to you how I feel, no longer will I
harbor these feelings of hope that things between us will change, no
longer do I think one day you'll wake up and realize just how great of a
prize I am. I'm done."

"And I know that answering 5 little questions may require time and
energy that you do not have but I won't wait for you to answer.....below
you will find my answers to my own questions."

1 and 2. No, I have never lied to you. I have no reason or desire to
ever tell you a lie.

3. Yeah, I probably need to move on, erase your numbers, email, and
screenname, and forget you ever existed. But some things are easier said
then done.

4. No, you don't live by the concept "actions speak louder than words".
You SAY you care but your ACTIONS say something completely different.

5. If someone were to ask me to define our friendship I would tell them,
"Me and him had the potential to be something great but he couldn't
learn to trust me enough to open and let me get to know the real him,
but regardless I care about him a lot although I would never tell him
that"

# posted by Clueless : 12:02 PM